Friday, October 31, 2014

Get It Right..............

Have you ever, truly given your everything? Poured your heart and your love into a matter or a project, only to find out much to late, it wasn't good enough? Haven't felt heartbreak like this since I left high school.
 I was never the prettiest, the most popular, nor even belong to the in crowd. When you watch the dreams for your life, drift away, day after day, year after year, you just hit a point of complete emptiness.
I am there. Empty. Broken. Wounded to a point that I am not sure I can rebound from. I had heard this song on  the television show Glee once. The lyrics haunt me tonight......


What have I done?
I wish I could run,
Away from this ship going under
Just trying to help
Hurt everyone else
Now I feel the weight of the world is on my shoulders

What can you do when your good isn't good enough
And all that you touch tumbles down?
Cause my best intentions
Keep making a mess of things,
I just wanna fix it somehow
But how many times will it take?
Oh, how many times will it take for me to get it right, to get it right?

Can I start again, with my fate shaken?
Cause I can't go back and undo this
I just have to stay and face mistakes,
But if I get stronger and wiser, I'll get through this

What can you do when you're good isn't good enough?
And all that you touch tumbles down?
Cause my best intentions keep making a mess of things,
I just wanna fix it somehow
But how many times will it take?
Oh, how many times will it take for me to get it right?

So I throw up my fists, throw a punch in the air,
And accept the truth that sometimes life isn't fair!
Yeah, I'll send down a wish and I'll send up a prayer
And then finally someone will see how much I care

What can you do when you're good isn't good enough?
And all that you touch tumbles down?
Cause my best intentions keep making a mess of things,
I just wanna fix it somehow
But how many times will it take?
Oh, how many times will it take for me to get it right?

Wednesday, October 22, 2014

"I've Grown Accustomed To Her Face"

In the infamous words of Professor Henry Higgins,
(My Fair Lady), I have grown accustomed to the most classic and beautiful woman in the history of Hollywood. Audrey Hepburn.

I love it when life's stresses, can bring about a creative side. This is my version of "Finnabair/Christy Tomlinson meets My Fair Lady.

                          "I've grown accustomed to her face"
A 6x6 deep stretched canvas, using various patterned craft papers, Lindy's Stamp Gang spray in Cotton Candy, gel crayons, and various mixed media items.

Everyone  have a blessed and crafty day!!!!!

Monday, October 20, 2014

A Time of Reflection and Renewal

2 Corinthians 5:17
Therefore if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creature; the old things passed away; behold, new things have come

Isn't it strange, that events in this life, can literally feel like a punch in the gut. And sometimes these events, can seem hopeless, often leaving one full of despair. And one of the hardest things to do, is to stand on the sidelines, waiting for a move of epic proportions, that will turn life around.

Trusting in the unseen, is one of the very hardest things to do. For me personally, when it comes to my life, I really tend to try to hold on to control too tightly, often times feeling defeated, when those moments have long passed.

Yesterday is gone, just a memory now. Today is a day to move forward. Today is a day of renewal.

 God removes the stains of our troubles and sorrows of yesterday. Each new day given, is a gift. And it is with expectancy, we face each new day. We move forward in a new found hope, and a new found freedom.

 Today, do not let the shackles of yesterday, leave you stuck in a place of uncertainty, or of complacency. For those who have believed, no longer shall you be weighed down, no longer shall you be bound by hurts, by sickness, by poverty.

 God will exceed abundantly, than we ourselves expect. We see what is before us, God see’s beyond that. He uses our troubles, to shape us, to transform us. We have been made, overcomers, by the transformation. With the love that has been given, with the grace and mercies of new promises, we can enter into a new season of our lives, VICTORIOUS, because our battles have already been won!

So if today, you are weighed down by the woes of yesterday, give it over to God. Place it in the hands of the creator of the heavens and the earth. Place it in the hands of the one who created you. Is there really anything too impossible for God? Move forward in the blessed assurance that the Father, wants every good and wonderful thing for His children. And He has got everything under control.


Tuesday, October 14, 2014

Another Project Complete....Timeless


I heard a sermon on Sunday, from Pastor Tony Stewart at CityLife Church in Tampa, that has resignated in my spirit since. The following is some excerpts, and my own notes combined from that sermon.
Many times we question, when we are faced with adversity of any kind, be it financial, sickness, problems in the family dynamics, marriage, whatever the problem, we never take one step alone. And many times when going through, we cannot see the finality in the matter, it is not meant for us to see.
All that is expected of us, to those who believe, is to trust in God, to believe in His word and promises. These trials, they are meant to develop us, to shape us into who God has destined us to be. To see proof,  take a look at Joseph in Genesis 37 is one of favoritism, envy, betrayal and deceit. It's not until 13 years later that it becomes a story of forgiveness, humility, love and restoration. Yet the end of the story of Joseph is a mirror image of the dreams that he had as a youth -- that one day his family would bow before him.
With jealousy as a motive, Joseph's 11 brothers attempted to prevent those dreams from being fulfilled by selling him as a slave to a band of traders. In their minds, to send Joseph into the lowest social class possible guaranteed they would never have to subject themselves to the humiliation of bowing to the brother they envied. But God, the giver of dreams and visions, had already confirmed the outcome.
And the trials Joseph faced from there, Joseph experiences life as a servant, during which he is falsely accused of a crime by Potiphar's wife, followed by several years in prison. Eventually Joseph is made second in command over all of Egypt, which allows him to save his entire family during a time of famine. It's a success story made in heaven, one that offers a message of hope in the midst of trials for those that read it.
God’s covering, brings connection.  God’s connection, brings favor. Always expose yourself to good input. I know, sometimes it is very difficult to do. But think the right thoughts, speak the right way. Celebrate the good in other’s whose dreams are being fulfilled. God will use ANY moment in our lives to bring our dream into fruition. Keep your dream in your spirit, no one nor thing can take the dream from there.
Any trial, pit or downfall, IS NOT our final chapter, “If god be for me, who can be against me?” Do not wrap yourself in the cloak of disappointment, wrap yourself in the cloak of praise, being grateful that God is fulfilling your dream. Hold onto the dream you have for your life.

Monday, October 13, 2014


Talk about crazy. Starting 4 weeks ago, pure chaos engulfed me. My husband suffered and serious leg injury, that required immediate surgery, it was a LONG few weeks of running him to doctor's appointments, aiding him in maintaining his job (thank God it was something I could do) and also running my parents to do grocery shopping, and appointments as their car had brokedown, as did our primary vehicle, we luckily enough had my husband work vehicle to aid. My husband is recovering quite well, 3 more weeks to go in keeping that leg straight, then the physical therapy begins.

It is in those moments, of total disarray, that I began to miss my "routine" life. And I especially missed my creative time. I have however, managed to get a few things in order for swaps, and have created another canvas.

The old adage is, "That which doesn't kill us, makes us stronger". I should be Wonder Woman by now, lol.